soooo tired

SO today I woke up, and I seriously thought that I had only been sleeping for about an hour. I went to bed late and in a really bad mood because of a last minute project. When I don't get sleep, I just suck so much. I can't function, and I snap off on people. So, I woke up and everything just seemed so wrong, our shower is broken, and I could just keep going. I hate when my bad mood overpowers my desire to minister to people. I hate when I can't control how I feel. So then in class, I started writing in my journal, that I just want to start this day fresh, and to not let all of the 1,000's of things that I'm doing overwhelm me so much, cuz they will all be over soon. But I know that I'm slipping. I can feel it in everything I do, whether it is my grades or homework, or even my quiet time with God. I want to be able to handle things under pressure, but I'm really not good at it. Missionary's are required to be flexible, and I am really not most of the time. I hope that I can just relax, and not worry so much about every little thing. I work now, and my play is friday, and I have to write, and memorize a speech by December 2nd. Along with all of that I have tests and homework, college stuff, scholarship stuff that I haven't done at all, and so many other things. Today in the car my mom and I just said that we both felt like we were dumping on eachother. When I'm stressed, I want them to let up and be nice, but I don't even realize how stressed they are. I'm a huge mess. The verse on the bottom page of my journal today made me feel a little better, it says,"He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak." Isaiah 40:29.
The Message Bible Says: Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or whine, Israel, saying, "God has lost track of me. He doesn't care what happens to me"? Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening? God doesn't come and do. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see and imagine. He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts."
Well, I certainly feel a bit better, I just wish I wasn't such an overly emotional girl!
Oh and meesh, thanks again for all the b-day stuff yesterday, you both made me feel extra special! Guess what?! I think that for once in so long, I will be with you on your b-day, at camp! Not in Chile or anywhere else. This summer is looking better and better!