no church today...8-(

So, I'm at my job, and I have some work to do, cuz it's a job....lol, on the weekends my job as a receptionist is really slow, so I kinda get to chill out. But today I can't go to church! And that is hard, cuz I love going to church..lol. So...I decided to bring the church to me, I brought my bible, and a cd player to play worship music! Now all I need is communion and some other people!
Lately I've been kinda discouraged. It is really hard for me to see my Christian friends falter in their walk with Christ. I see so many people say things like, "I wanna live for Him" and "Every minute of my life is for Him" and then they get caught up in things of this world, and sometimes they don't even see that those two statements create a paradox. (if I used this word right, that means that they are both opposite)
Jesus should be a part of every aspect of our lives. It isn't just the guy everyone talks about on Sunday mornings. He is real, and alive, and wants all of us! I am guilty of all of these things, there are still parts of me that I hold back, and refuse to let God change. Just yesterday I got some pretty harsh criticism, that I needed to hear, but it was still hard. I'm working on myself all the time.
The other day I was talking with Sarah about something that I've been thinking about lately. Think about what you are certain about. You know that the sun will rise in the morning, and you know that after winter will come the spring, and that what goes up must come down cuz there is gravity. I want all of the things that I'm "certain" about to come after my faith and trust in God. I want to know that God loves me and He is working in my life before I know that the sky is blue. So...that's my challenge to myself...I love you guys...or michelle...or whoever reads this.